A sickly feeling in the
pit of my stomach
Signals that something
is not okay
Review, review, review

Was it the notice of bills unpaid?
Was it the car being taken away?
Was it the endless stream
of money coming soon?
Or could it be me not being

Gratitude works
most of the time
I grin and I bear it
and say that I’m fine

But my body knows better
and sees through the lie
This feeling of sickness
is a trigger of mine

I’ll blame it on food
Too many cigarettes smoked
Not enough sleep or
too much of a workload

But I even cannot
pretend its not there
I’ll try to push through it
It will disappear

My body, my temple
Left in the wayside
Will never allow me
to just sneak on by
It quietly reacts,
protesting my denial
But what can I do
I feel it and smile

I smile and push through,
The story of my life
I pretend nothing’s happening
I’m good, let me be

Eventually though
Something has to give
I’ll carry a barf bag and
continue to live


About goplayintraffic

My Blog, which began as a mommy blog and turned into a writing website,, is the product of my years of being home with my children and trying to find ways to keep myself sane. I have always had this feeling, coming from a single mother, that I have to contribute financially and that I have to be able to take care of myself and my children. having been married, being a NYC school teacher, having four children, living in Newtown, CT and trying to find a way to get through each day with a smile has always been something I've strived for. My stories, articles and poems will do a lot of things but mostly make you feel. I think that is what is so wonderful about having the ability to write. I have been given the gift of taking my emotions and transferring them to written word. Once that is done, I can share those words with others who may feel better, maybe just for a moment, but better nonetheless having read my words. I am glad you are here and hope you will stay:)
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