Surrender Thy Self

Be positive! Be positive!
I try to move
Exhaustion consumes me

I listen to laughter
outside of my window.
I see branches waving
Taunting me
I begin to sink

Sink into the dark place in my mind
This place is known by many
who suffer
Many who, like me,

Grieving their old selves
Their old abilities
Their former lives of freedom

Sleep is my only refuge
There are other ways to escape
Escape this condemnation
But as many before me
have taken this path
I refuse

I will not dive
into that pool of

I will lay here

I will be grateful
that I can hear
my children

That I can see those
taunting branches

That I can still write my words.
He has a purpose for me

Sometimes I get angry
Sometimes I have self-pity
Sometimes I weep deeply for my loss

Then one day I wake up
I get out of bed
I move my legs
I think and speak clearly
I live again
Until MS returns


About goplayintraffic

My Blog, which began as a mommy blog and turned into a writing website,, is the product of my years of being home with my children and trying to find ways to keep myself sane. I have always had this feeling, coming from a single mother, that I have to contribute financially and that I have to be able to take care of myself and my children. having been married, being a NYC school teacher, having four children, living in Newtown, CT and trying to find a way to get through each day with a smile has always been something I've strived for. My stories, articles and poems will do a lot of things but mostly make you feel. I think that is what is so wonderful about having the ability to write. I have been given the gift of taking my emotions and transferring them to written word. Once that is done, I can share those words with others who may feel better, maybe just for a moment, but better nonetheless having read my words. I am glad you are here and hope you will stay:)
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