In Memory of 26 Angels in Newtown

I live in Newtown and sing in the choir at the St. Rose of Lima Church. We are having the memorial mass this Saturday. My choir director, Joe Jacovino, reminded us last night that, although we all still feel sad and are not looking forward to singing such sad lyrics, we are the music ministers of the church. He said that we have an obligation to keep it together for the good of the congregation.

I have four children in the Newtown school system and they ALL came home safely that day. I was in lock down in one of the schools and it was terrifying. This morning, I was thinking of what he said and wrote this Poem. I hope you like it.

Please share if you think these words can help someone you know.

Kerri Cartelli

In Memory
by Kerri Cartelli

I’ve hung up the stockings,
and we’ve trimmed the tree.
Took the annual photo,
of my family.

I’ve sent out the greetings,
to all of our friends……
But something is missing….
Our angels in Heaven.

It wasn’t so long ago,
In fact, like yesterday
That 26 people,
were taken away.

The how’s and the why’s,
are still so confusing.
To ponder these questions,
now seems kind of useless.

It forces me still,
to feel emotions like anger.
Fear and disgust,
a people in danger.

I shake off the evil,
and move on to the love,
that brought us together,
and think of the manger.

I envision us all,
a congregation of one,
As I gaze on the scene,
where Jesus once was.

He’s standing with them,
and guides their attention,
to all of us kneeling,
and praying before Him.

It’s a vision so many,
sadly will never see.
Anger and fear,
separates them from He.

And the angels who left,
this world so abruptly,
whisper sweet words,
of love and forgiveness.

He has them, it’s true.
And we want them here.
This feeling won’t change,
but it does become clear.

That when I am singing,
at mass Christmas Eve,
and think of the children,
and parents who grieve,
I will not give in,
to the sadness I see.
I’ll grab hold of those,
who are still around me.

I’ll help out a stranger,
who may be alone.
I’ll offer a ride,
to someone too old
and solo.

I’ll make a commitment,
to do acts of kindness,
and realize that I,
am still able to harness,
the love that exists,
in this town and this world.

A legacy left,
by our angels and Savior.

To do all these things,
in light of such evil,
is God’s will I think,
and by no means is simple.

I was given a gift,
on that terrible day.
My children came home,
were not taken away.

I still am in awe,
of those stricken parents,
who deal with their loss,
and are forced to just bear it.
To continue to grieve,
so openly,
sometimes feels selfish.
Dig deep and you’ll see,
that when tragedy passed over my family that morning,
I was charged,
with the obligation,
to earn it!

A year has gone by.
Days and weeks,
slipped so quickly.
I light one white candle,
in memory of thee.

And pray that it’s light,
may offer consolement,
and remind us that,
26 Angels are listening.

About goplayintraffic

My Blog, which began as a mommy blog and turned into a writing website,, is the product of my years of being home with my children and trying to find ways to keep myself sane. I have always had this feeling, coming from a single mother, that I have to contribute financially and that I have to be able to take care of myself and my children. having been married, being a NYC school teacher, having four children, living in Newtown, CT and trying to find a way to get through each day with a smile has always been something I've strived for. My stories, articles and poems will do a lot of things but mostly make you feel. I think that is what is so wonderful about having the ability to write. I have been given the gift of taking my emotions and transferring them to written word. Once that is done, I can share those words with others who may feel better, maybe just for a moment, but better nonetheless having read my words. I am glad you are here and hope you will stay:)
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